Hydra's Flare

2021

Acrylic On 30x40 canvas

I was in one of my funks when I started this process. Having been on a deep and transformative cancer journey, I was well acquainted with the Beast- that's the name I gave to Fear and everything that comes along with it. Beast wreaks havoc when it bites into my "what if'" episodes and won’t let go. It shakes its head viciously and splatters many versions of my ending. It’s an animated, scary, storyteller and my attention is held captive in a place where I don’t want to be.

I painted to seek refuge away from the grip it had on me. I laid down strokes of colour to give my mind something else to latch onto. Prayers were put out into the invisible field, through the portal of my changing canvas. I had no idea what would be revealed until I was shown what needed to be seen.

I cried when I saw that I was painting a broken form-filled with patterns of cancer cells. Anchored down by heavy chains, her heart was broken by things she may never experience. I’d never painted something so dark, but there she was at the base of my canvas. There was something powerfully healing in giving her a place to be. I stayed present with the sadness of her surrendering form. I felt some kind of peace as I took her in. I accepted her...and that’s when she Transcended.

I saw the opening...and from the opening of her back, emerged a Radiant Being!
Metamorphosed into the truth of who she IS, she left behind the shell of her imprisoned mentality and stepped into infinite possibilities.

The Awakened Ones appeared right by her side- assisting her in her Transcendence. They wear garments of sacred geometry which are energy patterns of creation. They witness her as an infinite and ever expanding Soul. She is luminous in alignment with her Bigness and weeps birds of gratitude, free from the Beast.